Running Away

In conclusion of the last week or so, I had become more and more depressed, falling deeper into this horrid black hole of shitty-ness. Some of you may have also noticed my username changed to “I would pay someone to kill me” for about an hour. People keep telling me that it would be better soon, yet I have been hearing that for the past year and a bit, and nothing has gotten better, just continuously gotten worst and worst. I knew deep down, I was falling away from God. I would just cry for days on end, until I was so tired that I can’t cry no more. Living was like a burden that wouldn’t go away, and I just wanted it all to end, even if it meant ending my own life. Today was like a wake up call from God, as I was in Sunday school today, we read a Bible passage in the book of Matthew. The Bible passage was like a smack upside the head from God, reminding me that I shouldn’t worry so much because everyday has its own worry, and that I shouldn’t be such an obsessive compulsive person. As long as I do my best, be as nice as I can be to everyone, and just do my best, God will take care of the rest.

Today:
I went to church in the morning and picked up my cheesecake, Boo Boo picked me up and we grabbed lunch at the Promenade. We had lunch in the food court, and met some friends whom we talked to for a bit. Afterwards, we walked around looking for pants for Boo Boo, but all we ended up doing was looking out for guys that seem gay/queer, and I got a chance to look at clothes for myself. I found out that I wear kid’s size 12 pants, and large kid’s tops. LoL Boo Boo was like let’s leave NOW before the parents start to call the cop on me (Boo Boo). LoL Nah, I don’t think the parents aren’t going to call statutory on you. Rofl After leaving the mall we head home to play this Samurai game on PS 2, it was quite an interesting game. A cute little game to waste an afternoon away, the little girl in the game was so adorable, I so wanted to just squeeze her cheeks. Hehe Anyways, after that we snuggled in bed, for some private time. It was fun just cuddling. We were so hungry after cuddling since it was around 10 when we woke up, we headed to the Golden Elephant for some Viet/Thai/Malaysian food. The food was so spicy, it was delicious. Boo Boo liked it too. We went home after we stuffed ourselves, watched the end of Lion King 1 ½ with Tim and Sarah. (Al’s girlfriend) All in all, it was a good day.