Larry

Events from the Past

LSL:
As you all know, my hard drive kind of died therefore everything was started all over. My lack of Sims was driving me insane. I did not want to waste 3 hours to install everything back, so I started to play Leisure Suit Larry. For those of you that does not know the game, here is a little breakdown: You play Larry, a 40 year old man, who is short, dumpy, balding, and looking for love. A great game to play if you have a few hours to kill. There is LSL 1 through 7 except for 4, and now the 8th is coming out soon. I so have to buy it when it comes out.

Eternal Darkness:
Its not a bad game, just that its so scary. I swear I would never touch that game again, it scared the crap out of me for a second. Even though it is frightening, it is an amazing game with great graphics and a awesome storyline. Another great game to spend time with friends if you have a Game Cube.

Narc:
A psycho thriller-ish/cop and drug movie. It is a good movie to see if you are into the whole Borne Supremacy style film. Its a decent movie with a twisty storyline, it is sure to keep you guessing till the last minute.

Mr. Fishy & Mrs. Fishy:
My friend a.k.a. Mr. Fishy, has a very interesting girlfriend, a.k.a. Mrs. Fishy. Everytime I talk to Mr. Fishy it is about cool, fun, normal topics such as anime and cartoons. On the other hand, everytime I talk to Mrs. Fishy, she is always talking about how she is getting it on with Mr. Fishy. On her msn name, she is always refering to sexual topics, like how a guy should do it to a girl. In her msn profile, all she put on that page is about how much she like sex. Woah... information overload, like do I give a shit about her fucking sex life, does she have to announce it to the whole fucking world that she loves sex, and do I really need to her tell me how I should treat and be with my boyfriend. Fucking Hell No! Okie... just a little venting, despite it all she is a decent person.

Stealing of blankets:
The other day, after eating 3 Krispy Kreme Donuts and a chicken sub thingy at Lee's, I was stuffed as stuffed can be and very sleepy. So Lee and I hopped into his bed to take an afternoon nap, just so that we can get fat. We slept for a good 3 hours before I started to roll and stole all the blankets, which left Lee naked on the bed, cold and frustrated because he couldn't steal the blankets back from me. I am the best blanket stealer in all the land. LoL.

I guess thats all for now.

Continuation of the Downward Spiral

Today has been a good day in comparison to yesterday. I guess I was surprised that I was still alive. I thought I wouldn't be able to take the pain anymore. I was so close to just snapping, so close to just letting go, and giving it all up. It has been a while since the first pain stabbed me right when I wasn't expecting it. It hurted so much. People keep telling me that things would be be better, yet it hasn't gotten any better, just worst and worst. Everytime I keep my hopes up, everytime I think to myself things will get better sooner or later, and everytime I pretended to be happy so everyone else around is happy. But everytime my hopes were shattered, tears fell, and I kept falling deeper and deeper into this hell hole. Only expect the worst, nothing but the worst. Maybe this is all a trial, a test, I just wish this nightmare would end. God, I know that you would not tempt me beyond what I can handle, but in all honesty, I don't know how much more I can endure before I snap and cross to the other side.

Today:
I woke up and I found myself all alone in my house. I got ready and headed out to have lunch with Tiff. Begin able to go out was indeed a pleasure, my injuries got a lot better therefore it wasn't that difficult getting to the Golden Elephant. Tiff and I sat in the Golden Elephant for at least 2 hours just chatting and eating. It was great just being able to relax and forget all the bad things that happened. The food was delicious, we shared a super spicy (hot) soup and we each got a bowl of noodles. The conversations was hilarious. Afterwards we headed over to Tiff's house in the rain, when we got to her house, I met her Grandpa, who was a very nice man. We continued to chat for another hour or so. During our conversation, I called Lee so that he could start to head over to Tiff's so we could go out for dinner. We waited and chatted and waited, but he didn't show up for over an hour. I started to worry and panic, (yes, I do think better under pressure) I looked out the window to check for see whether Lee was coming. At that moment, I realized that I gave him the wrong address. With no way of reaching him, Tiff and I headed out to look for him, and as I was just planning to bus home to see whether he was at my house, Lee ran into us. Thank God, I found him. I swear only Lee would stick around for an hour looking for the house. Even Tiff was like "I can't believe he stuck around looking for us, like any other guy would have just left. That is so nice." Yes I know I have the best boyfriend ever. After that we headed back to my house, chilled and talked for a bit, did some stuff for the yard sale, went out for sushi, (I swear the waitress and the chef knows us like so well now because we have gone so much) and chilled back at my house.

Thanks Tiff for sharing with me today, it was wonderful chilling with you.
Thanks Alan for the funny email.
Thanks Cuddlebear for being patient with me today for being such an screw up and a idiotic bitch.
Thanks God for being with me, protecting me and loving me through it all.

Random Song

Vindicated From the Spiderman 2 Soundtrack

Hope dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption
Winding in and winding out
The shine ahead has caught my eye
And roped me in so mesmerizing
It's so hypnotizing
I am captivated
I am

Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
Swear I knew it all along
And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now
The things you swore you saw yourself

So clear
Like the diamond in your ring
Cut to mirror your intention
Oversized and overwhelmed
The shine of which has caught my eye
And rendered me so
Isolated so
Motivated I am
Certain now that I am

Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
Swear I knew it all along
And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now
The things you swore you saw yourself

So tired of the corners of your lips
Part them and feel my finger tips
Trace the moment for forever
Defense is paper thin
Just one touch and I'd be in
Too deep now to ever swim
Against the current

So let me slip away
So let me slip away
So let me slip away
So let me slip against the current
So let me slip away
So let me slip away
So let me slip away
So let me slip away

Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
Swear I knew it all along
And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now
The things you swore you saw yourself

My hope dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption

Spy Eyes for the Sim Guys

http://pc.gamespy.com/pc/the-sims-2/540851p1.html?fromint=1

彩虹下的約定

我空虛的心靈　終於不再流淚
期待著雨後　繽紛的彩虹
訴說你我的約定
我不安的腳步　終於可以停歇
主你已為我　擺設了生命的盛宴

與你有約　是永恆的約
彩虹為證　千古不變
我要高歌　為生命喜悅
萬物歌頌你的慈愛
大地訴說你的恩典

*I almost forgot about that song until Christie led it in fellowship. I remember telling Lee the story of the box, the sweet romance behind it. With unsettling thoughts, I can only put my trust in God.

I really miss the park. The stupid injury is preventing me from going to the park. I just want to sit on the swing and just watch the sunset.

I have been spending so much time with friends lately, meeting up with different people just chilling and chatting. I really do love my friends. Hopefully, I will be able to continue to meet up with friends before school starts. I hate getting hurt, it is preventing me from going out that often. Boo.

Anyways, time with Jon today was fun. The food was delicious. I definitely would say today is not a bad day.

Love ya sweetybear. You better stop draining my energy, other next time I would not be able to get up. Naughy sweetybear.

Love's Labor Won

How strange that we call the sexual act "making love" when in actuality, if that action is without commitment, it is a literal and figurative denuding of love in which the individual is degraded to an object. Love is not love when it has been manufactured for the moment. Love is the posture of the soul and its entailments are binding. When love is shallow, the heart is empty, but when the sacrifice of love is understood, one can drink deeply from its cup and be completely fulfilled. The more we consume love selfishly, the more wretched and impoverished we become.

Side note: The message of Christ stands supremely magnificent. At the heart of the Gospel is a Savior who loves us and offered himself for us. Even Mahatma Gandhi, a Hindu, stated that the cross of Jesus constantly showed itself as an un paralleled expression of God's grace.

Referring to an earlier post:
In conclusion, to my readings the four essential components to the meaning in life - Wonder, Truth, Love, and Security.

Sweetybear: We seriously sat on my driveway for way too long. (You know when you sat on a driveway for way too long when you start to smell like the driveway.) Thanks for being patient and talking to me. This conversation sure knocked some sense back into me. LoL You explain everything like a math equation. Thanks for everything.

Ian: First person to say the harsh reality straight to my face. Thanks so much. I can't seem to get what to said to me out of my head. It sure helped me get through some pretty bad situations though. Thanks once again.

Noam: A special friend that God provided for me, when I needed it most. If it wasn't for you listening to me bitch, I would have had such a horrible time dealing with shit. Thanks a million. And good luck with your game.

People from Joshua: I love you guys so much. Without you guys my chinese would be horrible, (not that its any better now =P) and just thanks for all your support in everything.

I just realize I still haven't update what happened during the non-blogging period. Urg... procrastination. I will soon enough.

A New Beginning

It has been a while, so many things happened that aren’t in my blog. So many feelings felt that aren’t in my blog. Why? You might ask me, the simple answer to this question would be, my hard drive died. Due to unknown reasons, my computer’s hard drive crashed and died. I shall mourn for my hard drive until Adam gets back.

Since my computer crashed, I was able spend more time alone to think, to read, and to watch tones of anime. I discovered one thing when I was reading and watching the anime. “If we all discovered that we had only five minutes left to say all that we wanted to say, every telephone booth would be occupied by people calling other people to stammer that we love them.” Love, it gives us the power, to forgive the most wrongful of sins, to heal the most painful of wounds, and to erase the most dreadful of memories.

Love, it is in YOU to give.

Yes, many things happened through out the period of non-blogging. I guess I’ll post those events later.

P.S. Tim, I wish that you will have lots of fun in Taiwan, and I hope that you’ll spot a celebrity. Hehe. Remember, to get their autograph. O yes and I might be able to introduce you to a 2nd year person at Guelph, maybe it will help. *shrugs*

Puzzle with Many Pieces

I was reading something today that was given to me at church, which inspired my title for this blog. Life is a puzzle; we are all trying to finish our puzzle. We search for different things in life such as religion, love, goals, and others, just like how we try different puzzle pieces trying to see which one fits with the other. In the end, when all the puzzle pieces come together forming a complete picture, we will have created a masterpiece. You.

Sunday:

With only 4 hours of sleep, I ushered for the English Worship. Then we had a discussion/debate about homosexuality for Sunday school. Fun. LoL. After Sunday school, I helped Derek and John traced the HUGE map of Canada. The conversation during the tracing was funny. “Hey Derek, your head is in the way.” “Crap, the map is falling off the wall.” “AHHH… Your shoulder is blocking me.” Rofl. Crazy. Soon, my dad came to church, picked up Tim and me, and dropped off me home. Later that afternoon, Lee came over after going to Dim Sum with Lisa and Zenon, to go for dinner with me. I seriously would make such a bad farmer, stupid weeds. Not weed, WEEDS, the plants that are bad for your garden. It was so funny, Lee and me were walking to his car, and these 5 little girls were like they are so dating. And they were making commentaries as we got in the car and stuff. It was so weird. I think they just need a boyfriend. So we head back out west to Lee’s because we both feel like spaghetti, and because Lee bought GREEN TEA ICE CREAM, which I really want. We sat in the TV room to eat and watch TV. According to Lee, I made the cruelest (meanest) comment EVER. I really didn’t think so, but whatever. We spent the evening watching TV and ate ice cream. O yes, and I invented Mr. Penis-Head. LoL.

Monday: (Today/Yesterday)

Lee called me first thing in the morning and woke me up. He was at my house shortly after. We chilled on my bed for a bit, just playing around and tickling each other. We also looked at some South Park stuff, which was pretty funny. As usual we head back to his house, and grabbed lunch. When we got to his house where there was AC, we just laid on his bed with a fan on for a good 15 minutes just to cool our systems down. We ate lunch and watched The People’s Court. There are just too many funny stupid people suing the crap out of each other. At around 3.30ish, we headed to Lee’s grandma’s apartment because he had to fix Rosemary’s computer. (A lady who lives at the same apartment building, who always have computer problems.) And I went to swim with Lee’s grandma. I loved the water; it was great to be swimming again. Afterwards, Lee’s grandma made us dinner, which was quite delicious. After dinner, Lee and I headed out for some ice cream and a movie on Yonge. We got free ice cream because we got coupons, and then we went to Empress to see Harold and Kumar go to White Castle. We grabbed Wendy’s on the way back to my house. LoL. So now I am home. =)

Harold and Kumar go to White Castle:

It is a super hilarious movie. There were so many topless girls in that movie. It is absolutely insane. LoL. A must see for the summer. There were too many jokes, it definitely kept me laughing all the way through the movie. Also, for those that like perverted stuff, major dirty jokes. It was so wrong, so gross, and yet so comical.

An article I found:

You Must Remember This

A kiss is still a kiss unless you have all your friends and family standing by.

Then, depending on your smooching technique, the kiss merits a collective sigh, a photo opportunity or a story that will haunt you the rest of your married life.

Weddings are made for puckering up, and it starts with those memorable words, "You may now kiss the bride."

And yes, how you lock lips does make a difference, say the lip savvy.

"As a former wedding singer, I've witnessed dozens - if not hundreds - of wedding kisses," says Julia Sullivan, a writer and organizational consultant.

"The key principle is this: Your parents are watching you. Give the most loving kiss you feel comfortable with under their scrutiny," Sullivan says.

Too little contact will have your guests talking, as will too much. Avoid both the peck on the cheek and tongue wrestling, says Sue Fox, owner of Etiquette Survival.

"I recommend erring on the formal side and being classy," says Fox, who regularly consults with business companies about appropriate manners.

Although you know how to kiss - it's pretty difficult to get this far in a relationship without some lip skills - Fox recommends you discuss the all-important moment with your partner before the wedding.

"A lot will depend on the couples' personality," says Fox, author of "Etiquette for Dummies" ((Wiley Publishing, Inc., 1999).

"Open-mouthed, no tongue is probably the way to go. A kiss that lasts between 10 and 20 seconds 'looks right' to most observers," says Sullivan.

And for those who want to get a rise from the onlookers, Sullivan offers this cautionary observation:

"In my experience most of the people who did the big, sexy smooch thing at the altar were divorced within five years."

The Pucker Effect

The wedding twosome aren't the only ones kissing at the ceremony. During this joyous time you may find lips coming at you from all directions. Etiquette guru Sue Fox offers some tips on who and how to kiss.


The social kiss: "In the art of the social kiss the person who is the recipient is in control. You can slightly turn a cheek, or put a light hand on someone's shoulder if you don't want a kiss," she says.

No kiss: It isn't appropriate to kiss or hug someone you haven't met before. But if you've bonded during the wedding you may exchange hugs goodbye at the end of the event.

Air kisses: They're best left to celebrities. They look phony, says Fox.

That's it for now. Lots of Love.

Events From the Past

Thursday: FUN DAY DT

I got woken up at 9.30 in the morning because my mom had requested my assistance to help her to solve a computer thingy for her work. My brain was seriously dead, probably that was the reason why my mom, Tim and I all laughed for a good 15 minutes about our toes. Crazy. When my brain actually started to work, I remembered I had to be at Lee’s house by noon. I quickly rushed into the shower then out my house, on the TTC, went across the city to Lee’s. When I got to Lee’s, Ian was already there with his newly bleached blonde-ish hair. You must be wondering why I am doing all this; well today we planned to go downtown with Ian to pick up his T-Card. The three of us chilled at Lee’s, waiting for Lee’s dad to come home so we can get a lift to the subway, it ended up that Lee’s dad forgot about it and went up to the BOAT, therefore we had to wait another 45 minutes for his dad to come home. In the meantime, Lisa’s friend Ashley came over and chilled with us for a bit, then Lisa and Zenon came back and the three of them went out for lunch. Finally, Lee’s dad came home with this red MUSTANG (convertible); it was a very hot and fun car. On the way to the subway station, I remembered why I don’t like convertibles, because they messed up my hair. It was such a fun trip on the subway going down. When we arrived downtown, we walked to Robart’s Library for the T-Card; we had to wait for about 5 minutes for the photo to develop. I entertained myself by playing on the stair, but Lee kind of gave me a lecture about not playing on the stairs at a library, so I stopped. After that Ian had to use the ATM to get some money for food, so I once again entertained myself by playing hide and seek with myself, unexpectedly Lee sneaked up on me, and I shriek. LoL I caused such a raucous in a quiet university library. We quickly left the library shortly after. We walked around the engineering campus, after treading through a super damp and muddy field, I found myself on the same field where Nicole had graduated. Finally, I know where I was downtown. We went to Subway for lunch, then walked to the subway and headed back to Thornhill. The trip back was also very funny. Ian’s mom came by the subway station and gave us a lift home. When we got home, Lee and I watched Dirty Dancing 2: Havana Nights, after that we headed to Mac’s and got coke and NERDS. (Those little bits of candy in a carton with the different colours.) Overall it was a very amusing and eventful day with Lee and Ian.

Friday:

After fellowship ended, a few of us (Suki, Francis, Fion, Christie, Andes, and Me) went to ET for bubble tea and food. It was fun just to talk and chill with some close friends. We spent so much time just talking about cartoons back in the days from Hong Kong, and many different interesting anime. LoL. That reminds me of Ben. So we stayed at the bubbles tea place till midnight, fun times.

Saturday:

Tim woke me up at 6 in the morning for Saturday morning cartoons; I am thinking to myself, cartoons don’t start till 7. As usual I went to pee then back to sleep I go. Tim waked me up again because he was heading out for swimming lessons, and he reminded me to watch Winx Club, which I did. Winx Club is so cool. Anyways, soon Lee came over to pick me up for lunch and stuff. We went to the Sushi place that Winnie told us about, where in each booth there was a button you can push for service, a super cool utility that all restaurants should possess. We had so much food from that place we waddled out of the restaurant like penguins. O yea, something super funny happened before we entered the restaurant. As we got out of the car, and walked towards the restaurant, there was a dog in a really nice car, being me I said, “Hi Doggy, don’t bark at me or else I’ll eat you.” As we walked closer to the restaurant, I realized that there was a lady sitting in the car with the dog, and she was just glaring at me. Omgosh, it was so funny. We called Ben during our meal to tell him about it, we laughed so hard together, and Ben was like, “That was crazy funny, props to you.” LoL. Yes, give myself a pat on the back. Afterwards, Lee and I headed back to his house and chilled for the rest of the evening. *Tubby Time was so much fun with Mr. Ducky and so relaxing with the Spa treatment.* We grabbed Wendy’s on the way back to my house. After arriving at my house and ate, we had such a deep conversation/argument about our foundation of believe and other things. I guess it was good for our relationship. But, I didn’t get to sleep till like 4 in the morning, and I woke up at 8 because I had to be usher for the English Service. I think I am smarter with less sleep.

I’ll write about today later, getting sleepy.

Song Reflection:
A whole new world

(Brad Kane:)
I can show you the world
Shining, shimmering, splendid
Tell me, princess, now when did
You last let your heart decide?
I can open your eyes
Take you wonder by wonder
Over, sideways and under
On a magic carpet ride

A whole new world
A new fantastic point of view
No one to tell us no
Or where to go
Or say we're only dreaming

(Lea Salonga:)
A whole new world
A dazzling place I never knew
But when I'm way up here
It's crystal clear
That now I'm in a
Whole new world with you

(Brad Kane:)
Now I'm in a whole
New world with you

(Lea Salonga:)
Unbelievable sights
Indescribable feeling
Soaring, tumbling
Freewheeling
Through an
Endless diamond sky
A whole new world

(Brad Kane:)
Don't you dare
Close your eyes

(Lea Salonga:)
A hundred thousand
Things to see

(Brad Kane:)
Hold your breath
It gets better

(Lea Salonga:)
I'm like a shooting star
I've come so far
I can't go back to
Where I used to be

(Brad Kane:)
A whole new world

(Lea Salonga:)
Every turn a surprise

(Brad Kane:)
With new horizons to pursue

(Lea Salonga:)Every moment red-letter

(Brad Kane and Lea Salonga:)
I'll chase them anywhere
There's time to spare
Let me share this
Whole new world with you
A whole new world
That's where we'll be

(Brad Kane:)
A thrilling chase

(Lea Salonga:)
A wondrous place

(Brad Kane and Lea Salonga:)
For you and me