Angry Blog

I wrote about what happened on Thursday, yet stupid internet had some stupid popup that deleted my almost finished blog. Piece of Play Doh. Very angry. If I feel better tomorrow, I'll write about my fun time downtown. I am very upset with the internet at the moment. Very very angry. Okie... I am going to stop bitching even though I am still very angry. I am going to sleep in a very angry mood.
BoOo.

Give It All Away

Hey you, living for tomorrow
You sell your dreams for a bucket of change
Hey you, smokin' up your sorrow,
Just pointing fingers at someone to blame
Hey you, you turn your back on your children
It's left to "are they burning yet"
This life's like livin in the gutter
All this pain just makes you feel dead
 
You're just givin it all, givin it all away
You're just givin it all, giving it all away, hey, hey yayayay
 
Slow down
Just look a little closer
You might find thats its not the end
You wonder how, your life can get better
When you're alone you just set yourself down
 
You're just givin it all, givin it all away
You're just givin it all, giving it all away,
You're just givin it all, givin it all away
You're just givin it all, giving it all away,
You're just givin it all, giving it all away, hey, hey yayayay
 
Try and find your better half now
Open your eyes, and find yourself
 
Hey girl, screamin for attention
Once you get it, you throw it away
And broken, I'm pickin up the pieces
I won't live in all your mistakes

I'm just givin it all, givin it all away
I'm just givin it all, giving it all away,
I'm just givin it all, giving it all away,
I'm just givin it all, giving it all away, hey, hey yayayay

Meaningless

The quest for the meaning of life:
Some of us thinks that our lives are similar to that of Sisyphus. Poor Sisyphus reaped the displeasure of the gods when he disclosed to mere mortals secrets that were known only within celestial ranks. His sentence consisted in having to roll a massive stone top the top of a hill, watch it roll down again, and repeat the exercise endlessly. His was a life consigned to futility.
 
Is our lives really that meaningless? Or are we just looking in all the wrong places for the answer?
 
Today was an eventful day. Without knowing exactly what had happened, I was swept into a whirlwind of emotions. For a bit, I had no one to turn to, for the only one I thought I could turn to had already slammed the door in my face. Unexpectedly, I found out that God had already planted mini help buttons all around me, for hard times like this. I guess, God knows me better than I do. As I read the Bible, and did my devotions, my burdens seems to have vanished. Although, sadness still fills my heart, I can only hope for the best, and I know whatever the outcome will be, it is all in God's plan. 
The sun came out, is it a sign of comfort and reassurance? 

Quote:
"How strange that we call the sexual act "making love" when in actuality, if that act is without commitment, it is a literal and figurative denuding of love in which the individual is degraded to an object. Love is not love when it has been manufactured for the moment. Love is the posture of the soul, and its entailment are binding. When love is shallow, the heart is empty, but when the sacrifice of love is understood, one can drink deeply from its cup and be completely fulfilled. The more we consume love selfishly, the more wretched and impoverished we become."

Chain Letter

FINALLY A CHAIN LETTER THAT I LIKE!

Hello, my name is Basmati Kasaar. I am suffering from rare and deadly diseases, poor scores on final exams, extreme virginity,
fear of being kidnapped and executed by anal electrocution, and
guilt for not forwarding out 50 billion fucking chain letters sent
to me by people who actually believe that if you send them on, then
that poor fucking 6 year old girl in Arkansas with a breast on her
forehead will be able to raise enough money to have it removed
before her redneck parents sell her off to the traveling freak
show.

Do you honestly believe that Bill Gates is going to give you and
everyone you send his email to $1000? How stupid are you? Ooooh,
looky here! If I scroll down this page and make a wish, I'll get
laid by every Playboy Bunny in the magazine! What a bunch of
fucking bullshit.

So basically, this message is a big FUCK YOU to all the people out
there who have nothing better to do than to send me stupid chain
mail forwards. Maybe the evil chain letter leprechauns will come
into my apartment and sodomize me in my sleep for not continuing
the chain which was started by Ceaser in 5 A.D. and was brought to
this country by midget pilgrims on the Mayflower and if it makes it
to the year 2000, it'll be in the Guinness Book of World Records
for longest continuous streak of blatant stupidity.

Fuck them!

If you're going to forward something, at least send me something
mildly fucking amusing. I've seen all the 'send this to 50 of your
closest friends, and this poor, wretched excuse for a human being
will somehow receive a Nickel from some omniscient being'. I don't
fucking care. Show a little intelligence and think about what
you're actually contributing to by sending out forwards. Chances
are it's your own unpopularity.

THE FOUR BASIC TYPES OF CHAIN LETTERS:

Chain Letter Type 1:
(scroll down)
> >>
> >>
> >>Make a wish!!!
> >>
> >>
> >>
> >>
> >>Keep Scrolling
> >>
> >>
> >>
> >>No, really, go on and make one!!!
> >>
> >>
> >>
> >>
> >>
> >>Oh please, they'll never go out with you!!!
> >>Wish something else!!!
> >>
> >>
> >>
> >>
> >>
> >>Not that, you pervert!!
> >>
> >>
> >>
> >>
> >>
> >>
> >>STOP!!!!
> >>
> >>
> >>Wasn't that fun? :)

> >>Hope you made a great wish :)

> >>Now, to make you feel guilty, here's what I'll do. First of all, if
> >>you don't send this to 5096 people in the next 5 seconds, you will
> >>be raped by a mad goat and thrown off a high building into a pile
> >>of manure.
> >>
> >>It's true! Because, THIS letter isn't like those fake ones, THIS
> >>one is TRUE!! Really!!! Here's how it goes:
> >>
> >>*Send this to 1 person: One person will be pissed off at you for
> >>sending them a stupid chain letter.
> >>
> >>*Send this to 2-5 people: 2-5 people will be pissed off at you for
> >>sending them a stupid chain letter.
> >>
> >>*Send this to 5-10 people: 5-10 people will be pissed off at you
> >>for sending them a stupid chain letter, and may form a plot on your
> >>life.
> >>
> >>*Send this to 10-20 people: 10-20 people will be pissed off at you
> >>for sending them a stupid chain letter and will napalm your house.
> >>Thanks!!!! Good Luck!!!
> >>

Chain Letter Type 2

Hello, and thank you for reading this letter. You see, there is a
starving little boy in Baklaliviatatlaglooshen who has no arms, no
legs, no parents, and no goats. This little boy's life could be
saved, because for every time you pass this on, a dollar will be
donated to the Little Starving Legless Armless Goatless Boy from
Baklaliviatatlaglooshen Fund.

Oh, and remember, we have absolutely no way of counting the emails
sent and this is all a complete load of bullshit. So go on, reach
out. Send this to 5 people in the next 47 seconds.
Oh, and a reminder - if you accidentally send this to 4 or 6
people, you will die instantly.
Thanks again!!

Chain Letter Type 3

Hi there!! This chain letter has been in existence since 1897. This
is absolutely incredible because there was no email then and
probably not as many sad pricks with nothing better to do.
So this is how it works... Pass this on to 15,067 people in the
next 7 minutes or something horrible will happen to you like:

*Bizarre Horror Story #1
Miranda Pinsley was walking home from school on Saturday. She had
recently received this letter and ignored it. She then tripped in a
crack in the sidewalk, fell into the sewer, was gushed down a
drainpipe in a flood of poopie, and went flying out over a
waterfall. Not only did she smell nasty, she died. This Could
happen To You!!!

*Bizarre Horror Story #2
Dexter Bip, a 13 year old boy, got a chain letter in his mail and
ignored it. Later that day, he was hit by a car and so was his
boyfriend (hey, some people swing that way). They both died and
went to hell and were cursed to eat adorable kittens every day for
eternity.

This Could Happen To You Too!!! Remember, you could end up just
like Pinsley and Bip. Just send this letter to all of your loser
friends, and everything will be okay.

Chain Letter Type 4

As if you care, here is a poem that I wrote.
Send it to all your friends.

FRIENDS:

A friend is someone who is always at your side.
A friend is someone who likes you even though you stink of shit,
and your breath smells like you've been eating catfood.
A friend is someone who likes you even though you're as ugly as a
hat full of assholes.
A friend is someone who cleans up for you after you've soiled
yourself.
A friend is someone who stays with you all night while you cry
about your sad, sad life.
A friend is someone who pretends they like you when they really
think you should be raped by mad goats, then thrown to vicious
dogs.
A friend is someone who scrubs your toilet, vacuums and then gets
the check and leaves and doesn't speak much English...no, sorry
that's the cleaning lady.
A friend is NOT someone who sends you chain letters because he
wants his wish of being rich to come true.

Now pass this on! If you don't, you'll never have sex ever again!

The point being? If you get some chain letter that's threatening to
leave you shagless or luckless for the rest of your life, delete
it. If it's funny, send it on. Don't piss people off by making them
feel guilty about a leper in Botswana with no teeth, who's been
tied to a dead elephant for 27 years, whose only savior is the 5
cents per letter he'll receive if you forward this mail, otherwise you'll end
up like Miranda. Right?

Now Send this to everyone on your email list to prove how Fucking Right i am!
> >>
> >>
> >>
> >>
Cheerz 

What do you think of Lee's drawing? (He drew it with Paint.) My crazy Dragon Ball's hair. LoL

Sims 2 on shelves Sept. 17th. o4

Sims 2 Update

The Sims 2 is easily one of the three biggest PC games of the year, in addition to Half-Life 2 and the soon-to-be-released Doom 3. At stake is the future of a franchise that has sold millions of copies but that took a stumble with The Sims Online. The good news is that The Sims 2 looks like it will be a significant upgrade from the original game in every conceivable way; there’s a new graphics engine that allows you to experience every detail of your sims’ lives in intimate detail, as well as a new aspiration system that will give your sims desires that you have to fulfill.
 
At E3, EA introduced the aspiration system and showed us how your sims will desire certain things, be it relationships, wealth, family, and more. Maxis executive producer Lucy Bradshaw expanded on this further at today's event. When playing the game, it will be important to keep your sims happy by making sure that their aspirations are being fulfilled. For example, relationship sims will want to flirt, kiss, and have fun, and they’ll be depressed if you deprive them of companionship.
 
Each sim will have an aspiration meter indicating how fulfilled he or she is. The meter is tiered, so there are multiple levels of fulfillment. The upper two tiers are labeled gold and platinum. If you can reach a gold level of fulfillment, your sim will earn points that can be used to purchase special rewards that can make your life easier. Some of these include the money tree, which you can harvest every now and then for extra cash; smart milk, which you can give children to drink so they learn skills faster; and cool shades, which are art-deco lamps that help you make "friends" faster, in a romantic way.
 
The highest level of fulfillment is platinum. If you reach this, you’re not rewarded with points, but instead your sim is given a boost in his or her abilities. For example, a relationship sim who has been having trouble romancing another sim will now have a good chance of sweeping that sim off his or her feet. The aspiration meter slowly empties over time, so this effect won't last forever.
 
Bradshaw showed us the three different neighborhoods that will ship with the game: Pleasantown, Strangeland, and Veronaville. Not only does each neighborhood have a unique appearance, but each will come with a backstory of its own.
 
Perhaps the most familiar neighborhood is Pleasantown, where Mortimer Goth of the original game has settled down. It's 25 years later, and Mortimer is an old and wealthy man. He's single, as well, since the infamous Bella Goth took off under mysterious circumstances. Cassandra Goth is now grown up, and she has a little brother, Alexander, who was born to Mortimer and Bella shortly before Bella's disappearance. In addition to the Goths, there’s a pair of fraternal twin sisters who live in the neighborhood, and each is looking to marry Mortimer for his money.
 
Strangeland is a desert town that invokes an Area 51-style atmosphere, mainly because there tend to be a lot of alien abductions and UFO sightings in the area. Strangeland is the home of General Grunt and his two sons, Tank and Buzz. General Grunt (as his name suggests) is in the military, and he’s highly suspicious of the strange goings-on in the neighborhood. He has a tendency to stay up late and look through his telescope at the night sky, and he eyes his neighbors, the Smiths, warily. The head of the Smith family is Pollination Technician 9, who has blue-green skin and buglike eyes. PT9 just wants to settle down in the suburbs with his wife and two kids and live a normal middle-class life.

Lastly, there’s Veronaville, which promises a Romeo and Juliet-style setting, thanks to the presence of the Capps and Montys families. Of course, there’s an attraction between one of the Capps kids and one of the Montys kids, which should set up plenty of tension.
 
Bradshaw says that in addition to providing some content, these neighborhoods will also offer players an idea of what they can create in the game themselves. Players can build their own neighborhoods, limited pretty much only by their imaginations.
 
According to Bradshaw, the game went feature-complete shortly after E3, and the developers are now busy polishing the game and building up some of the player content, including sims that will ship with the game. She also showed us some of the 19,000 user-made sims for The Sims 2 that have been created, thanks to the Sims 2 Body Shop utility that was released earlier this year. And for fans who remember some of the headaches involved in trying to import user-made content into the original Sims, The Sims 2 will feature an in-game browser that will allow you to locate new content and automatically download and install it into the game.
 
The Sims 2 gets better and better every time we see it, and the game shows every indication of shaping up to expectations. We’ll find out in less than two months, as The Sims 2 will ship on September 17.

Clean Sweep

Whoa... I never realized how much crap was in my possession. For some strange reason I woke up at like 6.30 this morning, the sun was barely up in the sky, maybe I just needed to go pee. Anyways, since Lee didn’t get up early enough, we didn’t go downtown with Darryl and “BumQue” to pick up their T-cards, Lee just popped over to my house to help me clean out/up my room. We were suppose to clean up my room since like a while ago, yet we kept procrastinating so finally we did it today. We started to clean my room around 3 p.m. after we grabbed lunch at sushi place. Cleaning my room was like a journey through my life. I am like a trash lady because I kept everything. It took us a good 3 hours to clean and vacuum my room, but there is still little bits here and there to finish tidying. Oy. At least now my room is actually neat and not like a dumpster. We played Theme Hospital at Lee’s. Lee’s bed is so comfy should have just fallen asleep. *Yawns*
 
Things to complete:
~Plan Party Stuff { }
~Summer Camp Meeting { }
~NLS { }
 
Song Reflection:
Hold You, Kiss You, Love You

You're lookin' at me
Like the first time we met
I can tell that you're needing
That feeling you get when i
Hold you, kiss you, love you
Hold you, kiss you, love you
So darlin' surrender
Right here in my arms
Love will be waiting
Wherever we are when i
Hold you, kiss you, love you
Hold you, kiss you, love you
Just close your eyes
And i'll take you away
Let go of everything
Whisper my name when i
Hold you, kiss you, love you
 
Like i do
Hold you, kiss you, love you
Hold you, kiss you, love you
Just close your eyes
And i'll take you away
Let go of everything
Whisper my name when i
Hold you, kiss you, love you
Like i do
When tangled sheets
In the dark of the night
I'll wake you up in the
Sweet mornin' light when i
Hold you, kiss you, love you
Just close your eyes
And i'll take you away
Let go of everything
Whisper my name when i
Hold you, kiss you, love you
Like i do     
 

Hanging with Ben

Saturday & Sunday:
I love Winx Club. Saturday morning cartoon is the best, I know I am not a kid any more, but how can anyone not live off of cartoons?? I spent saturday morning just lounging around the house and watching cartoons. After lunch, I waited for Lee to get back from the boat, so we can go to bbq together. Soon Lee came, picked me up and headed to Sunnybrook Park. When we got there, we got together with Clarence and people. Unfortunately, Lee was out all day in the sun, and he wasn't feeling too well therefore we left early. At night, he stayed over at my house so he could come to church with me in the morning. Too many jokes at church, haha Pastor Ray. A dot of white in a sea of yellow. (It sounds like a marshmellow in a tub of pee.) We went to dim sum for lunch. Finally, Lee got to experience chinese people dim sum, instead of white people dim sum. We headed to Lee's house after dim sum, rolled on to his bed. I think food has this effect on everyone: it makes one sleepy, very sleepy. Not long after, we were both konked off in our own little dream world.
My dream was about me in The Amazing Race, at first this black guy and I was a team, and we then we did all kinds of crazy stuff. Then all of a sudden I was in a team with this blonde chick, I think she was hot. Anyways, so like we also did all kinds of stuff too. LoL And then Lee woke up so he woke me up too. It was around 7 when we woke up, and the sun was still out. We so had to take a shower, we were seriously sweaty and adhesive. I swear put Lee and I together just give it time and we would be stuck together like crazy glue. Talking on the bed soaking wet was fun. LoL
Incident on the Bed:
We were just talking on the bed and I started to name Lee's thingy Dicky. Yes, it wasn't original, I am sorrie, brain is on holiday just like the rest of me. Anyways, he was like Emilie (Lee's ex) called it John, but it doesn't look like a John, it looks like a Ralph. So I was like I like Lisa. And we just bursted out laughing because Lee's sister's name is Lisa. Bad joke...
Soon we realized we were starving and we were talking to Ben online. (A super crazy voice actor friend of ours.) We invited him to come along to eat with us, so we picked him up and headed out across the city to Wendy's. lmao So many crazy jokes in the car. BOMB THREAT!!! rofl
Thx Ben for all the fun and excitment. There is never a dull moment with you.
Love my munchkin. LoL. Thx for din din.

Follow Up

Um...Some people were asking me what I did for Lee's B-day, so here it is.
Well, I got up and wrapped his present. And I talked on the phone with him, until I finally got ready headed out to his place. I swear walking in his neighbourhood on a Saturday is not fun, especially since I am a Christian (I wore a cross too) and being Chinese is definitely not cool. Those people with their suction cups, hats, beard, and their wife with way too may kids, (sidewalk hoggers) are all like giving me looks. And it is not like I walked over their kids or something, so damn racist or "religionist". I finally make it alive to his house, I think Lee was worry about it too. So I gave him his present, and we chilled for the rest of the afternoon. Nearing dinner time, we went to this lobster place for dinner with his family and grandma. Is it just me or is people still giving me looks?? People, don't be a Christian Hater, I'll sue you all. *Evil Laughter* Anyways, Lee was paranoided throught dinner because he kept saying how the guy across the room was checking me out. *Cough* Right... Anyways, food was delicious, gotta go back. I was so stuffed by the end of it, I guess I wasn't the only one stuffed. (The lobster was stuffed too.) Afterwards, we had cake with all 18 candles, CRAZY, soon enough we will all be eating wax instead of cake. Lee's grandma also made some brownies. I personally am not a big fan of brownies so I sorta lied about how good it was, I am not saying it bad, it is great but I am just not a brownie person. Okie, I am digging myself in a hole. Haha, yes, dinner was a great accomplishment for me because I sat beside Lee's grandma, she is one of the most straight forward person I have ever met, if she doesn't like you, she'll tell you straight in the face, and I manage to stay on her good side. I am so glad I know like a teeny bit about everything, because with my making up stuff on the spot skill I was able to carry out a good conversation with her, and she likes me. Sweet. I guess my effort of trying to fit into the family finally paid off. Keke. Gotta give myself a pat on the shoulder. =)

My Gorgeous Sexy Boyfriend:
Haha. The other day after Lee drove me home, as usual we lounged on the sofa and just chat. He sat on one end of the couch facing me and I sat on the other end facing him, and we were just chatting while he gave me a foot massage. All of a sudden, while I was just looking at him, he put his hands behind his hand and did this whole model pose thingy. My heart just skipped at beat. I was like O MY GOSH, I so need a camera cuz you look so damn sexy. I swear under the right lighting, and angle Lee looks just like a model if not better. His eyes just got the right shade of grayish blue making him look totally soulful, as if he was deep in thought and just happened to look so good. Or he has this boyish look, which is totally cute yet sexy at the same time, and you wonder is he thinking about something naughty or just something funny. Or if you look at him right when he wakes up, he looks so lost. And then all of sudden when he is about to stretch or yawn, he looks like a super adorable kitten. So cute. LoL My goal is to so get a camera and just take so many photos.
 
MACs (the convenient store):
Lately, I have noticed something weird. People around Lee's area likes to hang out at MACs. After spending a day with Lee, at night upon returning to my house, we often would like to drop my MACs to pick up a coke and some gummies to munch on for the drive back to my house. And we often find many teenagers hanging outside and inside the store. Never in my life had I seen a long line up at MACs at 11 p.m. yet one of these night there was a 3 minute line up, and that was the longest amount of time I had ever spent in a MACs. Has MACs become the place to hang out? Is it the place to be for teens of today?? I guess I will never know. But eww who has no life to hang out at MACs, jewish teens are weird, or they seriously need a life or something. Conclusion: Fruity people likes to hang out at MACs.
 
Song Reflection:
Drama Queen (That Girl)
There was a girl I knew who always wanted to be the one to stand out from the crowd
Always believed that she was gonna live her dreams
That what when down was gonna come around
For all the doubters, non-believers, the cynicals that once were dreamers
One of these days you'll open up your eyes
And you'll realize
 
That girl was a one time teenage drama queen
A hot, tough everyday wannabee
But she'll have changed her destiny
Now she's a somebody
That girl was a wild child dreamer but she found herself'
Cause she believes in nothin' else
And you'll look back and you won't believe
That girl was me
 
Armed with an attitude that she knows how to use
She's gonna get there any way she can
Now she knows what she wants
No one is gonna stop her
Nothing's ever gonna hold her down
For all the doubters, non-believers the cynicle that once were dreamers
One of these days you'll know that you were wrong (who would know)
 
That girl was a one time teenage drama queen
A hot, tough everyday wannabee
But she'll have changed her destiny
Now she's a somebody
That girl was a wild child dreamer but she found herself'
Cause she believes in nothin' else
And you'll look back and you won't believe
That girl was me
 
Life is a work of art- you gotta paint it colorful
Can make it anything you want
Don't have to stick to any rules
You don't need a high IQ to succeed in what you do
You just gotta have no doubt just believe in yourself
 
Doubters, non-believers, once were dreamers
One of these days you'll open up your eyes
And you'll realize
 
That girl was a one time teenage drama queen
A hot, tough everyday wannabee
But she'll have changed her destiny
Now she's a somebody
That girl was a wild child dreamer but she found herself'
Cause she believes in nothin' else
And you'll look back and you won't believe
That girl was me
 

Woah...

Woah...it has just been a few days since I updated, yet I have just discovered my posting page is all upgraded and all these buttons and everything, it is absolutely amazing. LoL More buttons for me to fool around with. Keke.
 
Truth Vs. Lies:
The truth, can it be lies too?
The truth, to a point it maybe not be the truth anymore, so does it qualify as a lie then?
Doesn't a lie eventually become true?
A matrix theory: What is may not be it.
Truth, it is really facts? Or are the truths just our own opinions?
For example, if you are telling the truth yet the other person doesn't believe you, at that instant does it become a lie?
Fights after fights, it felt as if our relationship was built on sand without a fortify foundation. So many things were said, which pierced both our hearts over and over again. The pain and the tears, never in my life did I feel so vulnerable. I guess this is what love is about, to put everything you ever had on the line, and just hope for the best. Love, so many variables, the outcome is always a mystery. One good thing that came out of the fight was that we missed the rain. The fight wasn’t a good fight because we didn’t exactly solve the problem; due to the physical damage it was doing to the both of us. Lately, I found out that I am really not worth anything. My self-esteem and my confidence just drop from being able to be me to being a cheap crappy whore. So sad… It was a definite rude awakening.
 
Resolution:
After the fighting and sleepless nights, we finally reached the root of all problems. It wasn’t something that we can change with a click of the finger. So much more hurtful things were said, I felt like I was one of the contestants in like “The Bachelor” or “For Love or For Money”, everything was at stake. Since we are both relatively reasonable, we came up with a compromise. It feels so good now that we are still together, our love stronger than ever. And then there is the dune buggy rampaging through the aisle running people over.
 
Wednesday:
Lately I have been doing some accounting stuff for my mom. And I thought I could get away from math in the summer I guess I was wrong. I haven’t been eating much lately; according to Lee if the wind got any stronger I would be blown away. I seriously don’t think I am that thin, although if I had taken NLS right now I wouldn’t pass it just because I seriously don’t have the chub/fat to rescue anyone else let alone rescue myself. After getting into a bit of a fight with Tim’s mom (Why am I in a fight with all these people? That isn’t a good sign.) I decided to skip dinner, yet later Lee came over. (That was before our fight, because fight was Thursday and Friday night. Wednesday was sort of like the calm before the storm.) And we went to Destiny for food and bubble tea.
Today I was supposed to do stuff with Vanessa, yet when I called her house at like three in the afternoon, Sam (Vanessa’s younger sister) was like Vanessa is still sleeping. I was like wow that is crazy. So in the end we just talked on the phone for a bit which was still cool.
 
Thursday:
My BUM day, I didn’t do anything except talked on the phone with Lee and talked on the phone with Vanessa. And then I fought with Lee and didn’t sleep till like 5 in the morning, and was woken up at like 9 a.m. seriously, lack of sleep is killing me.
 
Friday:
I had some stuff to take care of near noon, and due to weather and money issues; I ended up not going to the zoo. I hope all you guys who went had tons of fun. After Lee finished doing his work, and I did my stuff, I met him at Finch. It was the first time seeing him after our fight. Things returned to normal, we joked around and fooled around, good times. On the bus, I saw Andrew Le from our school, the skater punk guy. I thought his name was like Jason, I swear teaching little kids every summer is making me very bad with names. Anyways, the only reason we talked was because he was having a nosebleed and I lend or gave him a tissue. Lee and I both wondered why he was on the Steeles West bus all the way across the city by himself. O well, none of my bees wax. Anyways, since we were both hungry we grabbed some sushi for lunch, and yes Sapporo has spoiled us. Damn, can never go back to the way it was before. After stuffing our tummies, we rolled ourselves to Lee’s house where we quickly slumped on to his bed and cuddled. Being so close to him after fighting is so weird, but so romantic and sweet at the same time. It was so intimate and loving. Eventually we fell asleep in each other’s arms. We were woken up by Downtown by Petula Clark. Apparently, Lee’s explained to me that his mom was suspicious we were doing something funny in the bedroom, and it was her way of trying to flush us out of the room with loud music. Yet she did not realize we were trying to catch up on sleep, and Lee being a light sleeper woke me up too. I am such a deep sleeper the only thing that could possibly wake me up are gunshots, screams, and thunder and lightning. But Lee was moving around (a lot), his bed isn’t one of those beds on TV with Richard Simmons, so the person sleeping beside Lee a.k.a. me was quite disturb so in the end we just listened to Lisa and his mom’s bad singing and just laugh. We spend the rest of the evening cuddling and watching a few hours of TLC and Jeopardy with Ken Jennings. In conclusion, I would say today is a very good day.

Quote:
Relationship is like a rose, How long it lasts, no one knows; Love can erase an awful past, Love can be yours, you'll see at last; To feel that love, it makes you sigh, To have it leave, you'd rather die; You hope you've found that special rose, 'Cause you love and care for the one you chose.

OoOo

Its sad when your boyfriend got bigger boobs than you.
(NO, I am not talking about Lee and I.)

S.I.T.
Sluts In Training.
(Copyright July 14th 2004. A Lee Tarnow Original.)

July 14th:
After doing some work in the morning, I headed out across the city to Lee's. As usual we acted like as if we were married. Guess what we did? We went to the grocery store and picked up some grape juice, and strolled around the mall. Upon leaving the mall, we drove ourselves to the gas station to fill up on gas. After filling up the tank, we went back to Lee's and watch Stepford Wives. In between the movie, Lee's mom made us some lunch at 3 in the afternoon, when we finished eating Lee's mom started to tell me stories of Lee's childhood. I gotta say, some weird stuff happened alrite. Haha, Lee was so embarrassed. Very cute. We did more lounging around the house after the movie was finished, and I had chinese (white people chinese food) with Lee's mom and Lisa. It was so weird kinda.

Stepford Wives:
It was a relatively funny movie. It started out great, a great opening and everything flowed together. As the movie progress, you will kinda start to get lost. It will still be funny but you would start thinking to yourself like,"What the ...?" And then the end was just confusing, maybe I am just stupid but 3 other people agreed with me. So you make up your mind.

Cuddle Bears:
The cuddle bear is the wily prey of the common horny male. A much prized creature, the cuddle bear is at the constant mercy of these horny males. The majestic mammal's sole defense, however, is a formidable one. The Cuddle Bear's toothline is mounted with two large fangs, which she bears at the slightest of threat. When capturing a cuddle bear in the wild, the hunter must be careful of these incidious incisors, lest he be cut to pieces!

Keke...

Whale Calling in the car is one of the most entertaining activities of all time.

Its especially funny when you punch it in the balls and he goes "keke that tickles."

Girls, when being with a guy never ask, "Why is it so long?" Because the guy will not be able to answer your question.

Toes are very entertaining during a car ride especially when you can do a TOES UP to the other cars or pedestrians.

When ordering a Wendy's Mandarin Chicken Salad, always ask them to hold the chicken, even though they may be rummaging through your salad.

Lately:
I have been able to spend more time with Vanessa. I did a lot of stupid yet funny stuff with Lee. I'm actually able to enjoy my summer without too much interference from my mother. I think my life is pretty balance with everything, I am happy. I guess thank God for everything.

Spidy 2 with friends: July 9th
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July 4, 2004 11:27:07 PM

Apology:
I guess this is my apology to Vanessa, my best friend in the whole wide world, that I am really really sorry for making her upset for the past bit. The above time was the exact time I received the email where Tim invited us all to go see Spiderman 2. Yet on July 3rd, I was invited to a birthday party, unknowingly the birthday boy bought tickets for all those invited to go see Spiderman 2. I am really really sorry. I know that Vanessa and I are sometimes really different people, maybe that is one of the many reasons we became best friends in the first place. Fot the past bit, I cried much more often because I haven't been able to spend as much time as I would like with my best friend. I truly think that friends are treasures, I value them over my life. Right now I just hope that Vanessa and Lee would just get along, and not hate each other, because at my wedding, I want the two people that I love the most in my entire life to be able to share in the joy that I have with both of them.

Quote: A friendship can weather most things and thrive in thin soil; but it needs a little mulch of letters and phone calls and small, silly presents every so often - just to save it from drying out completely.
(I am sorry Vanessa, I haven't been doing that often enough.)

Friendship is the hardest thing in the world to explain. It's not something you learn in school. But if you haven't learned the meaning of friendship, you really haven't learned anything.

True friends stab you in the front.
(That was just cute, like something Vanessa and I would joke about.)

A friend is one who knows you and loves you just the same.

The real test of friendship is: Can you literally do nothing with the other person? Can you enjoy those moments of life that are utterly simple?
(Deep)

The only way to have a friend is to be one.

Hugs(0) and Kisses(X) to all my friends.

Twins

Lee just send me this pic of this girl. He said that it looks like me, a lot. Yet, I serioulsy don't think so. You tell me what you think.

Events

Wasserman B-day Party:
Lee came over first thing in the morning to pick me up to head back across the city to meet some of the most boring people on the face of the earth. It was Wasserman's B-day. Lee and I grabbed some food on the way to the Promenade. Finally, arriving at the entrance of Rainbow I finally meets some of Lee's friends, such as Tani, Helen, Sharon, etc. It was fun to see Noam again. We went to see Spiderman 2, after Spiderman we headed over to Wasserman's to eat. After eating, some people just played the original Mario on Nintendo. It was so boring, so part of the time, I just chatted with Ian and threw stuff at his crotch. After being bored for about a few hours, I told Lee to leave because I was just falling asleep. The two of us headed back to Lee's place just to rest up before the trip home. When we got back to Lee's we just chilled and played, instead of resting. On the way home, we were starving therefore we bought Wendy's and ate it at my house. I guess the day wasn't that boring after all.

Spiderman 2:
For those that are going to see Spiderman 2 on Thursday, I won't say anything to ruin it for you guys, just don't have high expectations. I guess it was better than the first one, yet I swear I have never been so not entertained at a movie. I spend a good portion of the movie in the bathroom, walking around getting food, and saying hi to Evan. It was so predictable, and just plain boring so to speak. Good thing I didn't have to pay for the movie, otherwise so getting a refund.

Meeting:
After church on Sunday, a bunch of us who are helping out with the summer program was at a meeting. We were so efficient it was funny. I was sitting next to Syl. and like Viv and Sam came in together. *wink wink* (haha, j/k) I think Viv has a crush on Sam, than again I think every girl except me likes Sam more than just a friend. Why except me? Well duh, I love Lee, otherwise I wouldn't be dating him. Anyways, I think Viv doesn't like me that much, either or, they like fought we was going to sit beside me. Haha, I am popular. It was so weird like most of the time, it was just Sam and I talking, ewww. LoL. Uh oh... Viv turning into green-eyed-monster, seriously what is so good about Sam anyways?? And like after the meeting, Sam was kind enough to drive me home. Keke (I was alone in the car with Sam. *faints* j/k) It was nice just talking to him, he is like a big bro to me, I definitely treasure his opinions.

Monday: Happy B-day Ah D!!
Lee came over, learned stuff for calc. so boring. Anyways, we got hungry so we went to Milestones and grabbed lunch. After lunch, we went to see the Notebook. Since it was my dad's b-day we went to get him a card. LoL. Card shopping was fun. We eventually headed home, the ride home Lee accidentally elbowed me in the cheeks, and we bursted out laughing our heads off. We just keep laughing all the way back to my house. We played Jeopardy online for the entire evening, both of us collectively don't have a life. Sad. We played it so much, we started to memorize the answers because the topics repeat. We had Sushi for dinner, and noodles for midnight snack. And I finally got Lee home by like 1:30. It was a very long and fun day.
(Lee doesn't like Ryan Philippe, and I thought he was relatively good looking just a little bit scrawny.)

The Notebook:
I know, I know... the story is predictable, but I was entertained. The actors both Canadian, it was amazing. The acting was incredible. It is one of those movies, you either grab your boyfriend/girlfriend/wife/husband to go see, it is so sweet and romantic. A good tear jerker, also the cinematic is very well done. Overall, just a nice little movie for you to enjoy.

Friendless

Some people in my life, are just live ruiners. (Well, they only ruin my live.) For example, Tim's mom, what is her rule about not letting me sleep over, it makes no sense and all it is doing is causing me to be without friends, because I can't go to anyone's party. I swear, my birthday is in 23 days, and no one, absolutely no one will show up at my birthday party. Also, I probably won't be ever be invited to anything at all.
If anyone one puts their mind to it, they can be utter cruel. So can I.

Quote:That man can destroy life is just as miraculous a feat as that he can create it, for life is the miracle, the inexplicable. In the act of destruction, man sets himself above life; he transcends himself as a creature. Thus, the ultimate choice for a man, inasmuch as he is driven to transcend himself, is to create or to destroy, to love or to hate.

Happy B-Day Sweetybear!

O Canada

July 1st:
Happy Canada Day! 26 days till my b-day.
I was out all day with my parents and my mom's friend, whom I kind of remembered. We went to Cullen Gardens and Miniature Village. The place is so picturesque, it would be wonderful to have my wedding there. *wink wink* We spend all day there, I even went on the pony ride, I think I look cute on the pony. LoL After heading back to the city, we went to Market Village and Pacific Mall. I met up with Lee because Tim's mom invited Lee for dinner as a early celebration for his birthday. So, the six of us went to the Mongolian place for dinner. After dinner we went to Main Street to watch fire works. Overall, it was a very fun yet tiring day.

July 2nd:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SWEETHEART! (LEE)

Quote: I have no money, no resources, no hopes. I am the happiest man alive.