Weekend

January 25th - Merry Christmas

(Jan 24th)Lee slept over at my house, because yesterday he came over, spend the day with me, then we to the baptism at Ivan's church that night. Oy... man that was so boring, yet upon reflection it was quite a humourous evening. After the candle night service, we munched on the snacks. ( We had like a lot of shrimp cocktails, cheese cake, and a bunch of other stuff that I forgot or don't know the English for it. ) Because we were still hungry, we went to the Viet place at Finch and Midland, so we had like Viet at 11:30 at night. LoL Yup, spend the first 10 minutes of Christmas at a restaurant, classic. Anyways, after the restaurant people kicked us out, because they had to close, we went home played Freddy Pharkas till like 3 a.m. Yes, we are a bunch of crazy people.

Next morning (Christmas Day), we like woke up at like noon. Then we decided to go see the movie The Life Aquatic with Steve Zissou. So Lee and I are like walking ever so slowly to the bus stop because the sidewalk is like frozen. We finally get to the bus stop we see the bus, we thought the bus wasn't going to stop for us, but instead the bus driver stops and waits for us to get on and he let us get on the bus without paying. That was so cool. We watch the movie at the Famous Players and Empress. Let's just say the movie is unto itself, there isn't a way to describe it, and I am not going to touch that movie with a freaking yard stick. Yup. So afterwards, we went back to his house, rest up before heading back to my house.

Jesus Was Born for You

If you have ever laughed,
if you have ever cried...
If you have ever believed,
if you have ever doubted...
If you have ever been loved,
if you have ever been lonely...
If you have ever felt burdened by trouble,
if you have ever felt blessed by joy...
If you have ever drawn
one breath upon this earth-
then Jesus was born for you.

Christmas Season.

This year's Christmas has been quite entertaining, I'll update later about what had happened. I am way too sleepy now to do write anything stupid and funny.

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Christmas season is about what we should do every day.
Christmas season is about what we should not do ever.

Christmas is about friends.
Christmas is about family.
Christmas is about doing good.

Christmas is about magic.
Christmas is about dreams.
Christmas is about ourselves.

Christmas is the perfect chance to do what we thought we couldn't.
Christmas is the perfect chance to do magic.
Christmas is the perfect chance to make dreams come true.

Christmas is a commitment to do it forever.

=D

Happiness.
What is happiness?
We all recognize it at first sight, but can't describe it. Why? Furthermore, every attempt to do so is different.

Events begin to happen since our conception and get labeled either as "good" or "bad". Once labeled, they get a weight, relative to its importance.

The "weight" difference between "good" and "bad" events is proportional to happiness.

Happiness is an attitude.
Happiness is a choice.

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Tuesday December 21th. 2004 - Perfect Day

I bus-ed over to Lee's house in the morning, because we had a ton of Christmas shopping to do. When I got to his house, I waited outside for like a good 20 minutes because he was still sleeping, and no one was around so no one heard the doorbell to open the door for me. I seriously need like the key to his house, its not like I don't know the code to his alarm anyways. LoL So after a sleepy Lee, wrapped in his covers greeted me at the door, we hopped back in to bed, because I was like frozen from waiting. I gave him a special wake up call, when we really need to get up to go shopping. We decided to open up the presents that we got each other, after we got dressed and ready to go. Keke. I let him open his presents first, because he already told me what he got me. He opened the small one first, after ripping like 5 layers of newspaper and wrapping paper, he discovered that his present was inside a Disney box. Um... He opened the Disney box, to discover a box stuffed with newspaper except for a diagonally placed wrapped gift, the size of a game/dvd. :o LoL So he ripped through more layers of tissue paper, to discover I had bought him Metal Gear Solid 3: Snake Eater.
*Background Info* Lee told me that he wanted MGS 3, but I keep pretending to not hear and not know what he want, and made up this whole lie about didn't buying him MGS 3. He was so disappointed and upset. And he thought I bought him pants.
Once he saw what I got him, he like ran to the living room, did a back flip, jumped up and down, and start to shriek like a little girl. Then he like gave me the biggest hug and kiss in the world. He was like tickling me too, because he found out it was all a big hoax, and I like lied to him about not getting him MGS 3. Now, there was another present he had to open, he once again ripped through the wrapping paper, and newspaper to find another box he had to opening, this time the box was a clothing box. Um... he quickly opened the box to find more newspaper, and a gift the size of a strategy guide. He ripped through all the tissue paper, and found that it was the Limited Edition MGS 3: Snake Eater Strategy Guide. I was so relieved that I don't have to lie anymore, and that he was happy with what I got him. LoL All the power to me. Keke. So now it was my turn to open my present, since I already know what it was, it was still shocking, because he bought me a DIAMOND NECKLACE. It was so pretty, and sparkly. After all the commotion of opening presents, we were finally on our way to grab lunch and do Christmas shopping. We grabbed lunch at Pickle Barrel, we got so much food it was crazy. LoL Food was really good though. After doing a bit of Christmas shopping, we visited Lisa at Laura Secord, bumped into Darryl like twice, met Lee's friend that is supposedly my age but he looks like he could be in his late twenties/early thirties, and we decided to go see Ocean's Twelve. When we got to the theatres, we sat with Leon and his 2 brown friends and I talked to Leon for a bit. Ocean's Twelve was a good movie, not as good as the first one though from my own opinion. After the movie, we headed back to his house while arguing about our understanding of the movie. Oy... LoL We were so stuffed from dinner so we grabbed like Wendy's on the way to my house as a midnite snack. After chilling out for a bit, watched The Real Gilligan's Island and Sex and the City, he drove me home. So yup, I have to say today is a perfect day.

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Wednesday

I woke up in the morning, to find that I have more shopping to do. I waited till Lee woke up, figured out what we were doing today then I got ready to go out. I bus-ed to STC to pick up a few things, shopping was so frustrating, went home did a whole lot of gift wrapping. At this point I was kinda pissed, because I haven't eaten all day, and Lee haven't exactly figured out what was happening. And being in a mall with people shoving stuff in your face hoping that you would buy their stuff is just not cool. Anyways, afterwards I went over to Vanessa's and gave her, her present, and chilled with her for like an hour. It was good chilling with Vanessa, it made me less pissed off at stupid people. So like it was getting dark, and I still have more shopping to do, I swear I am like playing Santa this year. So I bus-ed my ass across the city to Lee's house, his mom made like chicken cutlet for dinner, it was so good. And his dad was so funny, I swear sometimes he act as if he smoked some sorta funny crack or something. So afterwards, we went to the mall to finish my Christmas shopping, we like chilled with Lisa for a bit, I swear Lisa's co-worker probably think I am weird or something. LoL Too many i-Robots jokes for a day. After another hour or so of hectic shopping, I finally get to go home and relax. Because of the heavy snowing and stuff, I slept over at Lee's. I swear everytime I sleep with Lee is like a journey to behold. Enough said... now waking up with Lee is another story all together. Self-Rotisserie Chicken!!! Oy... I thought we would never get out of bed. LoL This morning was just too funny. Stupid person, keeping trap in the blanket. =P Lee's mom was nice enough to make us scramble eggs and hot chocolate for breakfast, well more like lunch because we had it at like 1. LoL After that, we chilled for a bit more, then I got a lift home, after picking Jon up. And we got Wendy's for lunch. Um... Wendy's. Haha. I seriously gotta go something more productive soon. 2 more days till Christmas. YAY!

Jon, the Icelandic guy. LoL He is so model-eques isn't he?

Poo

The Ghost Poo:
The kind where you feel poo come out, see poo on the toilet
paper, but there's no poo in the bowl.

The Clean poo:
The kind where you feel poo come out, see poo in the bowl,
but there's no poo on the toilet paper.

The Wet Poo:
You wipe your butt fifty times and it still feels unwiped.
So yo end up putting toilet paper between your butt and your
underwear so you don't ruin them with those dreadful skid
marks.

The Wet Cheeks Poo:
That's the kind that comes out of your butt so fast that
your butt cheeks get splashed with the toilet water, or
splash-back.

The Second Wave Poo:
This poo happens when you think you've finished, your pants
are up to your knees, and you suddenly realize you have to
poo some more.

The Brain Haemorrahage-through-your-nose Poo:
You have to strain so much to get it out that you turn
purple and practically have a stroke.

The Lincoln Log Log-
The kind of poo that's so enormous you're afraid to flush it
down without first breaking it up into little pieces with the
toilet brush.


The Power Dump Poo:
The kind that comes out so fast, you've barely got your
pants down and you're done.

The Liquid Plumber Poo:
This kind of poo is so big it plugs up the toilet and it
overflows all over the floor. You should have followed the
advice from the Lincoln Log Poo.

The Spinal Tap Poo:
The kind of poo that hurts so much coming out, you'd swear
it's got to be coming out sideways.

The 'I-think-I'm-turning-into-a-bunny' Poo:
When you drop lots of cute, little round ones that look like
marbles and make tiny splishy sounds when they hit the
water.

The 'What-the-hell-died-in-here' Poo:
Also sometimes referred to as The Toxic Dump. Of course you
don't warn anyone of the poisonous bathroom odor. Instead,
you stand innocently near the door and enjoy the show as they
run out gagging and gasping for air.

The 'I-just-know-there's-a-turd-still-dangling-there' Poo:
Where you just sit there patiently and wait for the last
cling-on to drop.

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This is an attempt to make this blog funny, because I am in a rather crappy mood. Too many people is telling me that I have bad parent(s). Wow, thanks, I have lived with them for like 18 years already, no wonder I didn't turn out too great. My mom make life or specifically my life seems like such a waste. It is so discouraging, it seems like nothing I do is worth anything. Every dream I have ever had of me becoming somebody or doing something for others have been popped by her cruel, disheartening words. Even now, applying for university is like wasting my money, because she keeps telling me that I would never get accepted. Not once had she compliment me on something that I did well. She only came to one of my concerts, and that was in elementary school and on the way home she keep bitching about how bad it was, how shitty I looked, and whatever else she can bitch about. She never cared enough to come again. She only came for 1/2 hour or less of my grade 8 graduation, while others parents congratulated their sons/daughters on completing senior public school, I stood aside trying to be happy for everyone else. Why am I such a disappointment for my parents? Why did I do wrong? Why can I never be that perfect child that they want? Am I really that worthless? I don't want anyone trying to pity me, I don't need it. Thanks but no thanks. I just need to figure this out before it completely devours me.
Self Esteem - 0
Self Confidence - 0
Self Image - 0
At this point, I think nothing of myself. Just want to let go, completely just give myself to God, and let God figure this mess out for me. Perhaps, its best that way.

Lee - Thanks for trying to make me feel better about myslef, thanks for letting me watch ManHunt and look at that Icelandic guy *very model-esque*, (No... he is not my Icelandic boyfriend, you are my boyfriend, no one else.), and just letting complain and whine and bitch about hating myself. I am not worth you time, and your love. Yet you always try to make me happy regardless of all the odds against you and for that I just want to let you know that I love you with all of my heart. And without you I probably won't be able to tough it out through all those times. Thanks for the bottom of my heart.

Funshine Bear

You Are From the Sun

Of all your friends, you're the shining star. You're dramatic - loving attention and the spotlight. You're a totally entertainer and the life of the party. Watch out! The Sun can be stubborn, demanding, and flirty. Overall, you're a great leader and great friend. The very best!

What Planet Are You From?

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Thanks Sandy for the adorable yellow bear.

D i s t a n ce.

Mach 10. Mankind has just developed an airplane able cross the Atlantic Ocean at ten times the speed of sound.

The longest journeys on Earth are measured in thousands of kilometers. At 12,000km/h you can schedule your day leaving from NY's JFK at 8:30am and landing at London Heathrow 35 minutes later. What a day!

Distance is no longer an obstacle on Earth.
One day it won't be an obstacle.

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1 more day officially till winter break. The more you learn the less you know.
The limit of my knowledge scares me, perhaps it is true that if you don't use your brain, it will eventually deteriorate to garbage. A break, just what I need to reflect to things, haven't really "think" for a while. I miss those days where I have time to blank out. I miss being in a choir, and being able to sing for others. It really sucks when your interests become work, and marks, that is really bogus. Christmas concert, interesting though stressful from obvious reasons, tuning is always a bitch, meh. Its done and over with. Excusals are always nice, finally something good that comes from the SAC. Um... lots to ponder about, guilt and regret do they really go hand in hand? Secrets, are they consider somewhat of a lie? I don't know, why secrets? *brain gears moving around*

"What a 'Fucking' Day" - Tiger

Impossible.

Impossible is defined as "Incapable of having existence or of occurring". The human species has redefined it as a challenge.

There was a time when making thousands of copies of a single book was impossible. That time is gone.

There was a time when the earth was flat and when trying to sail beyond the Earth's edge would lead to an infinite fall. That time is gone.

There was a time when heavier than air machines could never fly. That time is gone.

There was a time when traveling faster than sound was impossible. That time is gone.

There was a time when traveling to the moon and beyond was impossible. That time is gone.

"Impossible" is gone. It only remains as a misdefined word in the dictionary.

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Yesterday:

Um... woke up, got ready and Lee came to pick me up. I love 97.3 because they are playing Christmas music 24/7, that's insane I probably heard like 10 different versions of the song Let it Snow already. Anyways, we went to grab breakfast at Mc.D's and I saw Mr. Scott there. Yup. LoL I got a toy from my breakfast happy meal, o crap, I left it at Lee's house. It was a fun toy too. Damn. Then back to his house we go, slept and cuddle on his bed, because we were both kinda full from breakfast. And his room was so warm, just thinking about it is making me sleepy. LoL O then the angry part of my day came up. After a long while, we were hungry and Lee wanted either chinese or subs, because of the incident from last week, I obviously picked chinese. But the stupid chinese restaurant doesn't do delivery during lunch, so we had to settle for subs. As usual, they screw up my order instead of Lee's, I swear mr. sub really really really hates me. NO MORE MR. SUB UNTIL 2005, unless it isn't delivery, where they won't be able to screw up my order. *SHAKES MY FIST MAJORLY* After that, we were sleepy again, so back to bed we went. More snuggling and sleeping, and we watched the new episode of South Park. LoL It was so stupid, funny but stupid, so I am not going to post it here, if you want to know what it was about just DL it off IRC or something. Eric Cartman is not a psychic. Anyways, with our tummy grumbling we finally ordered chinese. Chinese food that is made for white people is expensive, such a rip off. The food was okay, at least after eating I was full. LoL Dinner was funny, with Lee's dad, we keep cussing off the same lady. With our tummys full, we waddled back to bed. LoL We were like wrestling for the inside of his bed. I was laughing so hard I couldn't breathe. I was like dying, cuz I was laughing so hard. It was so stupid, we like fight for everything on his bed, from his pillows and blankets, to the spots on his bed. We act like two crazy little kids. LoL It was like 9ish after that, and I wanted to watch Man Hunt, so we watched that until I had to go home. LoL Man Hunt is such a funny show. I think I have this thing with models. LoL Me weird. Yes, finally brought the pink cup home. Wow, after spending the day with Lee, my mood was surprisingly much better as oppose to other days.
Tiger- Too many R-rated material in this blog that I have to censor out. Haha. j/k.
Thanks Hun for bitching at mr. sub people for being the fourth thingy in a atom, morons.

Shrek marathon

Quest.

Mankind's appetite for knowledge knows no limits. Unfortunately, neither does its appetite for conquering.

The quest for knowledge brought medicines.
The quest for conquering brought deceases.
The quest for knowledge gave men the ability to fly.
The quest for conquering took away men's right to live.
The quest for knowledge sent men to the moon and back.
The quest for conquering sent men to kill others.

May the quest for knowledge reach the point where it says that men conquering men is an aberration.

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Yesterday, as last week I volunteered at STC doing gift wrapping. I finally met Cindy's sister Tracy. Yup, I am getting way friendly with my supervisor. LoL Anyways, we like talked for an hour cus-sing off morons that work at Timmy's, McD's, and Wendy's. LoL It was too funny. Then all of a sudden I get the worst tummyache in the world, I still have no idea what caused the crazy tummyache. So I quickly called my dad to come and pick me up because it was hurting so much that I can bearly walk. I ended up being at STC for only an hour and a half. So I went home and called Lee telling him that I am at home instead of at STC, so he doesn't like rushes to STC to pick me up and find me not there. So later on, Lee came to pick me up to grab lunch, my tummy was feeling a tiny bit better because I took some Advils, we had Viet as usual then we headed back to his house to hang for the day. After listening to me bitch and complain for like half an hour in the car, we finally gets to his house, with me needing to go pee really really badly. We finally got settled in his bed, we watch the new South Park episode, Stupid Spoiled Whore Video Playset. LoL It was so funny, it make fun of Paris Hilton so badly. All the fourth grade girls idolize a rich, famous and spoiled socialite. They even have her brand new toy set that comes complete with video camera, night vision filter, play money and losable cell phone. In an effort to impress their idol, the girls pursue the boys to make their own videos.
After laughing our ass off, from seeing fourth grade girls trying to be whores, we began our Shrek marathon. I swear laughter really does have crazy healing power. LoL Yup, we spend the next three hours watching Shrek and Shrek 2, and we went through all the special features too. It was so fun. I am starting to pick up more and more of the perverted jokes. I swear in Shrek there are so many penis related jokes. Oy... Anyways, we ordered Subs for dinner, and stupid Mr. Sub people keep screwing up my order like 3 times. Its like karma or something, because I cus them off in the morning and then they screw up my order at night, meh that just means I am not eating subs for a while, their lost. Upon finishing the food, we just cuddled on the bed because we were stuffed, like big fat turkeys. It was good cuddling time though because we talked through stuff that we kind of taboo-ed, after all that has happened. I am still trying get over some stuff, it still hurts a lot to think about it, and I still feel really bad about what has happened but I guess life still moves on, I can only look at tomorrow and hope for the best.

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Upcoming Events:
December:
Monday 6th - Ty Christmas Concert + Gift Wrapping with Vanessa @ STC
Tuesday 7th - SAC Meeting(a.m.) + Band @ Night
Wednesday 8th - MCF - Bible Study + Hannukah Dinner w. the Tarnow's
Thursday 9th - Grade 8 Parents' Info Night + Calc. Test??
Friday 10th - Special Breakfast w. Ms. Whipp(a.m.)

Quizzes...

woohoo! you're a F.O.B...Fly Oriental Being! you're
cool, fashionable, you keep it real, and you
have non-asian friends as well as asian ones.
you set a great example for all the other girls
out there.


What's your Asian Stereotype? (girls)
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You are SO not a band geek! The thought of band
makes you squirm. One of those hats would give
you hives. Run away, it might be contagious...


Are You a Band Geek??
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Homework.

Homework is a must during your scholar years.
Many so-called teachers understand homework in a different way that I do.

How I understand homework:
Homework is an invaluable tool for learning.
Knowledge is the most valuable asset for a human being.
Happiness is what makes live worth (personal thought).
Knowledge and happiness are not mutually exclusive.

How many so-called teachers understand homework:
Homework is an invaluable tool for learning.
Knowledge is the most valuable asset for a human being.
Happiness is a waste of time, therefore homework and happiness are mutually exclusive.

Based on the previous statements, here's my conclusion:
Excessive homework leads to poor learning -or not at all-.
Poor culture usually results in lack of happiness.

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Field trip tomorrow to Central Tech to attend a conference representing MAC. It is the 7th annual conference for senior high school students, called OUR FUNDAMENTAL FREEDOMS, where the president from CCLA will talk to us about THE PRICE OF FREEDOM, and discuss other critical and controverial issues.
How does a democratic soceity make choices when good conflicts with good and right with right? Every value we share and hold dear inevitably conflicts with another value we also cherish. Some worthy objectives must be sacrificed at - least to some degree - in other that we can attain other worthy objectives. For example: Should the right to speak your mind include the right to malign a racial or ethnic group? Does the war on terror justify more police to invade our personal privacy?
Great... O Joy.